My Resolution….

Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines Resolution as:

Main Entry: res·o·lu·tion
Pronunciation: \ˌre-zə-ˈlü-shən\
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle English resolucioun, from Anglo-French or Latin; Anglo-French resolucion, from Latin resolution-, resolutio, from resolvere
Date: 14th century

1 : the act or process of resolving: as a : the act of analyzing a complex notion into simpler ones b : the act of answering : solving c : the act of determining d : the passing of a voice part from a dissonant to a consonant tone or the progression of a chord from dissonance to consonance e : the separating of a chemical compound or mixture into its constituents f (1) : the division of a prosodic element into its component parts (2) : the substitution in Greek or Latin prosody of two short syllables for a long syllable g : the analysis of a vector into two or more vectors of which it is the sum
2 : the subsidence of a pathological state (as inflammation)
3 a : something that is resolved b : firmness of resolve
4 : a formal expression of opinion, will, or intent voted by an official body or assembled group
5 : the point in a literary work at which the chief dramatic complication is worked out
6 a : the process or capability of making distinguishable the individual parts of an object, closely adjacent optical images, or sources of light b : a measure of the sharpness of an image or of the fineness with which a device (as a video display, printer, or scanner) can produce or record such an image usually expressed as the total number or density of pixels in the image
synonyms see courage

So 2009 is on it’s way out, and I have mixed emotions about seeing it go…
It was a hard one in many ways; the hardest moment was saying goodbye to my beautiful mother.

Moving forward is a very difficult direction right now. I keep wanting to look back, so the going is slow. And I’ve also been looking inward as well. I’ve discovered that I need to rest…. and I need to replenish my creative energy.And sometimes I’m going to need to cry….. and remember…. and take time for myself….and live a life that my mother would be proud of.

So I have made a resolution. I’m taking a year off. A solid year to explore new artistic avenues…. to feed the font, and  spend time with family and good friends. That means that I won’t be teaching, or doing bead shows. I may or may not sell work, but I will be making it… lots of it. I’m absolutely vibrating with ideas I want to try, and I want to stay up til 4:00am if I feel like it to work on them. I’ll try and share what I’m doing from time to time, and I think I’d like to write on my blog more often as well, but I refuse to make unrealistic goals this year…. it’s all about living in the moment.

In dying, my mother has given me the gift of time. I intend to make the most of it.

So wish me luck…. or rather …peace and continued inspiration.

And may your New Year be shiny and bright!

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4 comments on “My Resolution….

  1. marcy says:

    Jen, I do wish for you continued inspiration, which I know you have already. But mostly I wish for you peace and happy memories and a way to express them through your wonderful art.
    Marcy

  2. Mallory says:

    Peace to you, Jennifer! May you truly be full of the grace of inspiration and love. May your memories of your mother be stored in a special place in your heart.

  3. Andrea says:

    Jennifer!
    I wish a wonderful year of break… new inspirations… new things and I´ll be happy to meet you again in Hamburg anywhen…. I think it´s good to hear what your soul want´s to have and a year of break will heal and change
    andrea

  4. Manu says:

    Dear Jenn,

    I wish you time, lots of time for you and your family, for looking inward and for inspiration, time for dreams, time for you.
    I am sure you will make the best of it – I wish you good luck and a shiny New Year.

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